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Monday, June 19, 2006

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 13:50:30 GMT

so far this summer, i have come to the self-unrealization that many things that i thought i knew about me, i don't. aren't you suppose to "find yourself" in college? i don't think i did. i just don't feel consistant as a person. in some situations i am one way, but in others i am another way. or maybe the situations are totally different so they require totally different responses? anyway, i just don't like living in two different worlds. :(

Monday, May 08, 2006

Mon, 08 May 2006 14:41:45 GMT

Sometimes I wonder if it's just me that sees so many flaws in people and then goes on to consider them annoying. I wonder about those people who seem to be able to love anybody and not let their imperfections eliminate the chances for any kind of loving relationship. It just seems so natural for them. What I want is for me to see people how God sees people. I can't because I'm CONSTANTLY judging others and seeing other's selfishness and pride. On the other hand...I love loving people who are easy to love. :) Yeah, it's pretty selfish...

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 02:22:10 GMT

so, i'm afraid of knives, and lately i've been having these aweful, gory thoughts of me running my finger across a very sharp blade. thinking about it is so painful to the point of me actually grabbing my finger to stop the bleeding. sometimes when i get started, i can't stop. it's very weird. i wonder why i keep doing this to myself.

anyway, happy valentine's day! :) mine was pretty nice, i got yummy burger boy! what about you?

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 17:17:06 GMT

wow. i skipped the whole month of december with updates! CRAZY! this break has been surprisingly really busy for me. i've gotten to hang out a lot with many different people. it's funny how we all go home to our respective places over the break and it's like we resume our "old" life. at least that's how it's been for me. i think this break has been really really fun at some points, but then there IS the added drama. definately ready to take a break from that. i think the high point of my time here is going to cajun's warf (wharf, whatever) because i finally got to dance. i'm sure it had been years since i went clubbing....wait...just hk. but yeah, that was really fun, even though they played like country music half the time. who clubs to country music? not i!

oh yeah, going to the casino's for the first and second time in my life was fun, too! fortunately, i pretty much broke even with the two times combined. i got free drinks AND buffet, as well. yummy....

now i just wonder how my last semester will be.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 07:14:33 GMT

YAY!!!! only 14 hours until I'm on my merry little way back up to Arkansas! I love, I love, I love! Speaking of love...a particular passage that's been on my mind for the past few days: Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. -1 Cor 13...and that, my friends, is one of my favorite parts of the Bible. I guess I find a lot of hope in it. The fact that love is all of those things, and the fact that love does exist is really encouraging. The hard part is making sure that love is a part of all our relationships with others....yeah, that's really hard.

...back to me being excited about home....YAAAAY!!! i get to see my brother....YAY!!!! i get to see Jamila maybe lyndsey...and almost maybe Yehua...and maybe jason...and whoever else....pooh, i can't think, but....YAY!!!!

I love.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 02:56:34 GMT

me: i'm hungry again!

jennifer: are you SERIOUS?

me: uh...

jennifer: i mean...how may i feed you?

nice...i've brainwashed them...:)

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 16:41:41 GMT

i must be going crazy. today in my mass media class this girl kept looking at my paper to see what i was doing ( i was studying for another class ) and i was getting SOOOO annoyed! i even started like breathing really hard cuz she just KEPT staring at my papers. something wrong with me?

things i love:
when people hold the door open for you even your like 10 million feet away.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 03:53:27 GMT

Speak tenderly to them. Let there be kindness in your face, in your eyes, in your smile, in the warmth of your greeting. Always have a cheerful smile. Don't only give your care, but give your heart as well. -Mother Theresa

Lately, I've been really excited about Christmas. Yeah, I know it's a bit early, but so. It's getting cold, and I (semi-) love it! It's only half-hearted cuz my fingers get numb in the cold...PLUS, we don't have heat in our apartment, so the bottom line is, I freeze. But what I love about the coldness is that it reminds me of Christmas with my family. It's always such a happy time, and I just can't wait to go back home. Gosh, I've been missing my parents (and brother) a lot lately. It's funny cuz Jenny and I have the opposite problem. Her parents call her too much, but I feel like mine are too busy to call me :( Well, not REALLY, but when I call (when I miss them) my mom always cuts the conversation short. How sad.

My computer died again, and I dunno what to do. What a bummer...I ain't got money or time for this!!! In other bad news, I keep hitting my head on the overarching tree branch walking home from school. It's just aweful, guys (not to mention embarassing)...and there's a bump on my head today. I gotta start looking where I walk.

Lyndsey's coming this weekend..yippee! :) However...what to do, what to do? Regardless, glad to see a face from home sweet home. :)

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 20:12:10 GMT

wedding planner is SO dumb that if you watch it, your butt is liable to fall off.

last night was great!! :) it's awesome how a pretty good day can turn into a TERRIFIC one in such a small amount of time....:)

Monday, September 26, 2005

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 21:02:20 GMT

have you ever tried moving every single voluntary muscle you can move all at once? you should do it...it looks REALLY silly.